Money Dreams

Michelle Shocked’s song “Come a Long Way” has a line that talks about stopping by a gallery and getting a cup of coffee.  When I got to that part this weekend, I was totally blown away.  Imagine!  Buying a cup of coffee!  At an art gallery, no less.  That would set a person back five dollars at least.  I would have to plan ahead a couple of weeks for such an expenditure. 

 

Yes, I’m horribly poor. 

I should be comforted by the fact that the woman in the song is trying to outrun a repo man after her motorcycle.  I have neither cool bike nor java.  Nor credit good enough to buy either. 

Mopey Song List

Here’s what I’ve been listening to: 

 

Fashionably Uninvited   Mellowdrone               

Lazy Eye                      SilverSun Pickups

Deep Red Bells            Neko Case

Dream All Day             Posies

All That I Know           Screaming Trees

Spit on a Stranger         Pavement  

 

I’ve been very sad recently and I blame it on the first song on my list; “Fashionably Uninvited.”  It reminds me of being single and wanting love and wanting someone to sing a song like that about me.  Or for me to sing it about someone else.  Feeling like this again after 13 years of marriage is disheartening. 

 

Goin’ Against Your Mind               Build to Spill

Scotty’s Lament                             Connells

Everlong                                        Foo Fighters

 

We’ve had some talks, and he knows I’m not happy.  We’re close, very close.  I wish we could have a sibling relationship and stop trying to be a couple.  He’s not going to love me like that again.  He’d still save my life, but he’d complain about it afterwards.